pursuit of infinity

Simple Truths:
I need God. Desperately.
Peace, infinity, steadfastness, purity, joy, meaning. I can't hold any of them on my own.

I try and try and try and try. Then I get surprised when I fail.

Beth said now she's coming to realize that no one should be surprised when we fail God. If we didn't fail him we wouldn't need him.
And I need him so bad.